When you’re a drinker, heartbreaks are part of the lifestyle. Steady relationships aren’t really a thing because you’re not so steady yourself. My longest relationships while drinking never crossed the three month mark and I was okay with that. Addict brain likes the rollercoaster rides and dramas that come with love, lust, and obsession. It wasn’t until I was sober that I realized that this is not normal, even though it was normal for me for many years.
First, I want to tell you my formula for curing heartbreaks when I was drinking:
5 years. The longest relationship I’ve ever had: Me and my sober self.
I think about drinking all the time. I loved drinking. I was good at it and I have scars on my knees from all those fall-down drunken nights to prove it. We’ve had good times and we’ve had bad times. Some nights, I miss those nights.
The last five years have brought learning, growing, facing things I didn’t want to face, fixing things I didn’t think needed fixing, and preparing myself for whatever came next. I am sad for the time I spent drinking and how it…
Poetry, Memoir, and Tales of Sobriety.